I did it. I left the house for something other than work or chores. I got dressed up, got Kayleigh dressed up, and went to a bridal shower.
If you’ve been a mom before, you know how hard it is to leave the house with a baby. Not only do you have to make sure that you’re dressed up and look nice, but now you have to decide what the baby is gonna wear and that you have everything! Not to mention, if you have a baby that spits up a lot, you need to make sure you are prepared every time you pick up your child or your cute outfit will have to be changed multiple times. This is a lot of effort. Most of the time, I decide not to go somewhere or do something just because of the effort it takes to do it.
Around 5pm yesterday, I started to talk myself out of going. I started coming up with excuses on why I couldn’t go. Kayleigh was sick (but she wasn’t). I’m sick (but I wasn’t). It was the anxiety of making sure I have everything and I still look put together. All I could think of was what I was going to wear, what Kayleigh as going to wear, do I want to nurse or bring a bottle, or even which toys I wanted to bring to make sure that Kayleigh wouldn’t be that fussy, annoying baby.
By 8pm, I had finally talked myself into going again. I had gotten B to go get the shower gift, that I had forgotten to get earlier in the week, and I was calming myself down by spending time with Kayleigh. I looked through my closet and figured out what I was going to wear. Kayleigh was a different story though. It was supposed to be hot, but Kayleigh didn’t have any fall clothes. Thank god for the large amount of Disney dresses we have.
I’ve never been so thankful that I went to an event. I ended up meeting another mother there. She had brought her little boy of 8 months who was only a little bit more advanced than Kayleigh. He could sit up by himself and was crawling, but talking wise they were similar. I talked to the mother about pregnancy, birth, nursing, and even our relationships. It was exactly what I needed. I have no mommy friends so I hadn’t gotten the chance to talk about things like this to someone who totally understands. I was more comfortable nursing in public because she was right next to me, feeding her child a bottle. I was more excited when Kayleigh was napping because I could talk about teething with this mom. It was exactly what I needed and we even ended up giving each other our numbers so that we could have play dates!
Kayleigh even made a “boyfriend.” Too bad she also has one at the day care!
-Trying not to go crazy,